Trying to get over it

I have this friend, we've been friends for years since we were 15, i've always had a strong connection to him, in the sense that it felt like he is the only person i trusted to confide in, he was my best friend, better than any friend i've had. we just connected on a deep emotional level, like we could read each others thoughts. So one night when we were hanging out i was going to bed, and he made a move. We ended up having sex, i didn't think too much of it, i thought that everything would just be how it always was. I didn't feel embarrassed about it but he completely shut me out, stopped talking to me, returning my texts completely cut me out of his life. its been over a year later and i just cant get over it, i still miss him. As my friend, i miss his companionship and understanding, he told me he had me for life before we had sex, He still wants nothing to do with me so I've stopped trying but it tears me up inside. I just want to get over it but i don't know how. I just want to know how he feels. can you help me? i just need some closure, or perspective since i cant get it from him.

I'm very sorry. It's very hard to find a friend you can understand on an intimate level. Aside from that, I feel like he was just using you, or maybe he feels guilty about it. Try some closure with him, even if it means cornering him and forcing him to talk. Has he done this to other girls? Do you know if he had any abstinent beliefs? If you don't feel like talking to him, that's okay. It's especially hard to vent your feelings when he was the one you vented to in the first place. Try finding inner peace. Talk to yourself, and search through your thoughts. You'll find solace. Try finding another intimate friend, too, though. Again, I am very sorry.

I'm not dismissing that he may have used me and to me that hurts much worse because we were such close friends for so long, and maybe that is the case but he told me things that he never told anyone else, he told me that he would always be my friend, he'd alwasy be here, he's cried with me and weve shared so many genuine emotions as friends. We never kissed until that night, and even then i was hesitant becuase of exactly the situation im in. I would love to take the advice of corning him because it seems to be my only option but i cant confront him if he hasent responded to anything in over a year, im scared he'd push me even farther than i am now. I appreciate your time, and effort it means a lot. its been hard to keep everything so bottled up for so long.