Feels like ever dating is impossible for me

So my story is very sad. I'm 34 male and never dated or even went on a date in my life. This damages my mental health a lot and causes lots of sadness and depression. I'm 6ft tall, born in England and very muscular from lifting weights all my life for the last 17 years. So I'm above average attractiveness according to AI around 8/10 in terms of physical attractiveness. I'm a brown man though and only attracted to white women. On dating apps I get no results at all despite being 6ft, very muscular and above average attractiveness. This gets me down a lot. I was exposed to internet porn from age 8 and got into the habit of seeing escorts from age 18 which became a long term habit for the last 16 years. It started as curiosity and became a habit as I do have an addictive personality. As I'm only sexually attracted to white women all the escorts I saw were white over last 17 years. Some were very attracted to my physique and gave compliments, some kissing me off the clock, etc. But this never really boosted my confidence as online I don't get any results. Good thing is I did have sex with lots of hot white girls over the years in this way though it never really served any benefits in terms of my psyche and mental health. Just good from experience point of view and variety. Big problem is I've been isolated and alienated from society all my life. I work from home doing something similar to trading markets. I make a living from this. I am also starting masters degree now in Psychology. Overall my mental health is poor as this issue of never having dated and being isolated all my life weighs on me heavily and is too much for me to bear. I see couples all the times and many times the man is not as physically attractive as me, he might be short, fat, out of shape, etc. This only serves to further anger and annoy me on a daily basis. Don't really see how I will ever date any woman I'm attracted to in my life. I'm already 34 and have already missed out all my life on relationships and proper intimacy. I get very little social contact other than going to the gym every week and restaurants, supermarkets, walks, etc. Tried salsa in past but never enjoyed it. Tried yoga as well in past but found it to be poor for meeting women as people disappear quickly after class and no real social contact during the yoga class. My poor mental health from this issue is affecting my happiness in life and causing too much sadness, anger, resentment and depression. I know most white women are primarily attracted to white men or even black men. As a brown man though I know that I don't really meet the normal stereotypes of brown men in that I am tall and very muscular and have larger than average penis size at 7 inches which is in 95th percentile for men. I have seen in real life some couples of white woman and brown man so I know it's not an Impossibility. I just feel like it's an Impossibility for me. Maybe also affected and coloured by the profound loneliness, alienation, lack of connection and isolation that I've experienced all my life. Don't know what I can do really to have the dating outcomes I would like. Did try a therapist in past but found it to be useless to be honest.

You are putting too much pressure on yourself and imaginary boundaries.