29 and feeling bored and stuck

Well I don't even know how to start this post, maybe by telling you a little about myself? I'm 29 but feel 21 and basically I have no idea what I want to do next with my life. I thought things would kind of click into place and just kind of happen. For the past 7 years, I've watched people buy a house, have committed relationships, become really successful at work and get amazing opportunities. I do understand behind closed doors we don't get the full picture and everyone has their own struggles, but during times of self doubt and insecurity it hadn't felt that way. I've felt like I've had to really claw my way through the things what and had to do it alone. Especially my career, which is a whole other story. But after a really turbulent time of having having a lot of nos, having to work in crazy side quest jobs, a mental breakdown, nearly losing all my money, the pandemic, I did eventually get the job I wanted at 25. I was so happy and just relieved and so thankful to have security. Years past and I just enjoyed stability, started saving for a house and started to travel as much as I could. Last year was amazing! This year has really quietened down and I thought I was going to buy my house and just go from there. BUT now the time has come, I just lost all motivation to do it. Mainly because, it feels a little bit like a trap. The beginning of this year, I came to the awful realisation that my work sees me of more of a convenience rather than someone to level up. I had been in this false illusion that I was making my way up for the past for years. So I've had to deal with grief of that not happening anymore. Now I don't know what to do. And I feel something inside me stirring to do something. But I really don't know what, I'm at a weird cross roads. Do I buy a house? but where? where do I travel to? OR do I buy a camper van and travel around my country? My job? do I leave? I was so determined to leave a few months ago and have now lost the motivation. I'm scared of leaving to be honest. I work in film and I still want to work in the industry but more so something that actually leans into my interests. I've started working out more and taking care of myself a lot more recently. But because of all this, I find myself working or doom scrolling or shopping and that is it! I'm in this awful rut I can't get out of. I wish an opportunity would just show up to help me get back up and give me a direction.