Do I need help?

I really dont know whats wrong with me,i sit in my room and i tryed to think about life but for some reason it all dont add up,i seem to b so unlucky n i always mak such bad choices,even tho people try to giv me advice i never take it.It started to happen a few years bac, i had a good job, nice flat, loving friends n family around me but i got so bored wit my predictable life, i started drinkin alot wit old school friends, i started calling in sick and bein only 17 i didnt think bout the future n wot would happen. i got sacked n had to move back in wit my mother n father,i felt angry so did everything i can2get out the house,i got new job i hated n moved in2 a bedsit only to b struggling wit money,i stopped drinkin n jus wrked as much as i could, i was so busy i lost contact wit my friends,2yrs later i tryed to get the contact bac but it didnt work, they all got gud lives now.things went frm bad to worse, i became very depressed as all alone, started sleepin around and gettin drunk, last yr my drink was spiked and i was raped by sum1 i wrked wit causin me2leave my job, i got a loan frm a bank n credit cards n now in debt of £15,000 at least, n i cnt clear it. The only person im in contact wit is my father, he keeps givin me advice, tryin 2help me but each time he trys2help me i push him away, tell him i dnt need his help n sit n cry. i hav no job at the moment, im scared2let any man touch me, i hav no money, im becomin very fat, i hav no friends, all i do is cry, i cnt even sleep - n now ive started cutting myself - i cnt see a way out of my problems, n i know im to blame. wot do i do? i think im goin mad.

hiya my name is lucy im not at an olda age yet but im 13 yrs old it may seem stupid but i hv had problems before n once i felt like there was nothing left for me!! really i fink the bst fing 4 u 2 do is get a job n i no u may b scared of men now but trust me u hv gotta pluck up all ur courage 2 move on! it may b hard but seriously fink about it u need a job to live your life because without money there is nothing really you can do!! listen to your father he most likely hasd alot of good advice and he may b able 2 get u out of ur deep hole into a beta lyf 4 u!! nd dis fing bout bein fat i bet u arent anywhere near it and trust me cutting urself is definately not da bst policy jst fink of da ppl hu it may hurt and da scars ur gna get left wiv wen ur lyf gets beta all da bst ope evryfin goes fine i will keep checkin on ere 2 check u r ok ? i will try keep ion touch ova dis k x babii lucy x

Dont try and run away, thats wot i did. u must face up2ur problems, problems dnt go away if u always run n hide frm them, listen2all the advice ur dad has given u, start a new fresh life- join a debt agency, take a holiday. Start a new job and make plenty of new friends. think ur better than all the people whos hurt u, show them u can make it on the real world by urself. i have faith in u. xxx