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11 year relationship ended but we finally made love?

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I had just recently got out of an 11 yr relationship with my high school sweetheart. The reasons why it had ended are related to me; I'm very emotional, immature, insecured, extremely needy and highly dependent on him. We moved away from home together and thought we would spend the rest of our lives together (you would think so after being with the person for so long). The problem was and is me. Right now, we're broken up but I still live with him because I have no where to go. I'm shortening this because the details of our relationship is just so drawn out and right now it feels like a broken record. Anyhow, we still live under the same roof and the break up was hateful. We can coexist with one another but sometimes me talking drives him off the wall. After 11 years, he's finally taken a stand for himself and said he wants a real woman. It's a reasonable request to ask when you're 26 years old and somewhat has your career situated--good salary, secured job and responsible. About 2-3 days AFTER we had broken up, we were sitting on the same couch watching TV and I decided to take his spot as soon as he got up; just to be a pest but a cute one. He jumped on me and we were playfully pushing each other off but then we kissed... It was one was the best kisses we've both had in a very long time. Then we began to kiss some more and before we knew it, we mutually began to make love to each other. While our sex life (before the breakup) was pretty decent, it lacked intimacy. This time it was pure, rich, raw and completely mutual. We continued another round later that night and then another one during the following (yesterday). I don't know what this means. I've ask him why we do this and yet we can't be together... Clearly the man is way more mature than me even though we're the same age. It seems like he hates me during the day but completely loves me during the night. My joke about it is, he loves me when I'm not opening my mouth and saying something immature, illogical and half-assed. It does make sense. But we can't be together because he wants to move on and do what he needs to do but has clearly told me that he may still be in love with me. That isn't taken too lightly with me. It means something. To me, it means there's hope for us. To me, it means that there's a fighting chance of us being together and living out our lives if I could only get my act together and be the WOMAN not girl, that I need to be--that I'm supposed to be. But is it false hope? Am I setting myself up for a severe heartache? What should I do? I probably already know the answer but I guess I'd like to hear someone else's wiser, smarter, more experienced opinion. I love this man with everything I've got but I did an excellent job and screwing it up. Like I said, the details of our relationship has been left out because it feels like a broken record but judging by the description of this situation, what say you Wise One?

11 year relationship ended but we finally made love?

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I don't think you should sleep with him again, it will only cause you more heart ache. Men and women see sex differently, men see it as what it is 'sex' women see it as a more intimate act that couples do, I'm not saying he didn't enjoy it but, you need to have more respect for yourself and he will respect you more. You seem to put yourself down a lot in your post, I think you need to find yourself and learn to love yourself, we can all be needy and immature at times but we shouldn't have to change for anyone either. Don't be used for casual sex, love and respect yourself and do some things for yourself, make some new friends, get a hobby go on a girls night, let him see what he's missing! I wish you all the best xx

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