I cheated on him, now neither of us know what to do

Well, you see.. I've been with this man for, well, it'll be about 6 years this year. From the very beginning, we met online. I'm 4 years younger than he is, but he was in awe because of me. I was his everything, and the only one that he talked to. In a way, I became his life support, only I was also the thing that hurt him most. I didn't give him the love, and respect that he gave me, and I guess that was because I didn't know what love was until I was older. In 2011, I cheated on him 4 times while we were finally going steady, and he found out about 7 months ago.. We are both at a loss for words. I'm taking whatever he lashes out at me, because I deserve it. We both know that we're meant to be together, we just don't know how to get past this. I know it'll take a lot of time and effort, but he has become the reason for us not moving on now. He knows this, and he apologizes for being that reason. We are lost, and don't know where exactly to turn, because we are each other's life support. I'd really appreciate some positive advice, and not just people saying, "He should have dumped you," or anything negative like that. Thank you.

life it tuff, there time you need space for your self. if he love you as much as you say then he should understand. not every relationship are perfect. you can not just blaming you self if you love him. it up to him to understand you or you just have to move on. " even then he can forgive you but he can never for get "