Love to get feedback. 30 yrs & bored

I have a incredible man, he will do anything in the world for me. We have a job which we take care of troubled teens. I HATE it, it has taken over our life. No hanging out with friends, ALWAYS have to. Take kids with us 2-3 all the time. These kids are bad kids, troubled, it's been 12 years we've done this, it was only supposed to be 2-5! With the economy, and our ages ... We're stuck. While we aren't old, we are early 50's , i feel tremendous guilt because deep down, I feel HE should not have let us get to this point. I do have an outside job, self employed. And with the economy, my business is slow, so I am not making what I used to.he seems content, playing video games, watching movies. I'm miserable. Sex life..... Almost non existent. While I don't want to leave, I do love him. But I am looking for pleasure. I almost feel " justified" as he did seek elsewhere many years ago. I know, 2 wrongs DON'T make a right. I'm just not happy....... Advice?

wow .... I understand 26 yrs & also bored...things and ppl do change ...would love to chat with u

hi 30 and bored. I am in a very similar situation. Have you talked to him about it? I am a husband though. I can tell you this, if my wife told me she desired pleasure I would be on that like quick! We are in our middle 40's and our sex life is almost non-existent. Neither of us has ever cheated though. Don't cheat. I think you will regret that. Why do you blame him for the situation with the job if you both share it?