Sigh clueless

i have been feeling really lonely lately for some reason i need some advice well this is my situation im a freshman at high school in marching band i dont have a job i only have 20 bucks im not the skinneyist person ever but not the largest either my i can make anybody laugh im super shy when it comes to the actually asking a girl out i just cant do it the only girl i have actually asked out was for a dance and i even let myself an out it was like this hey are you going to the dance and if she said yes i would just ask with who i left myself an out i couldnt even put myself out there on the line and this girl lets just say not my smartest move ever she is not the most smart person or the most hygienic or not annoying whatever even if i do ask a girl my family will freak out my dad will want to talk to me my mom will get super sentimental and my sister will be like no you wont it a whole thing i am friends with a couple girls and it is easy to talk to them but if i ever try to ask them out it would be like an actor forgetting his lines on opening night its a mess i need some advice im as in the title clueless

sounds a bit melodramatic of course at your age its gonna be like that at your age just get over it and ask I mean lifes to short and rejection is apart of life so Carpe diem tust me if rejected what u get more confidence will come with it also