Lonely in my marriage

I am married 15 years, I'm now 43. I am pretty certain now that I never truly loved my husband I just needed him. In recent years with the serious unemployment, I have gone out to support the family and done so really successfully, my husband is at home with the children and the gap between us has grown wider, so wide I just can't relate to him anymore. I met a guy last week that I hadn't seen for years and he was clearly interested in me. He lives in another country so I know nothing can come of it but it has really made it clear to me that my relationship with my husband has come to an end. If I loved him at all I wouldn't be thinking of this man at all or wanting something to come of it. I just don't know how to get out. My husband loves me so much, he tries in his own way all the time but he never takes me out hasn't done so in years. I just want to have dinner with someone and feel like a woman and I feel so guilty for that on the other hand I can't imagine I'm going to become an old woman and look back into my twenties as a time when I was last taken out for a nice meal by a man. He doesn't treat me badly he just doesn't make me feel like a woman ..

It seems like the gilt that you will feel after going out on another date will not be worth the sensation of "feeling like a woman again" I suggest that you plan a romantic vacation with your husband, somewhere all inclusive and hopefully the spark will come back. 15 years is a long time, I would say you probably do love him overall just not happy with how he treats your momentarily.