Ridicule

there have been a catalogue of events in my life where iv been publicly humiliated. or that is how i interpreted it. i can not distinguish between a joke or somebody taking the piss. for example, my neighbour was trimming her hedges and threw her rubbish into my garden. i dont see this as funny, i see it as taking the piss. yesterday i rang a friend and when he picked up the phone he went 'YEH YEH' and not HELLO. i was livid!! he was with a group of friends talking to me like that!! and i just cant handle it! for years iv took this kind of crap and said nothing but now i flip!! i just think and feel that people think im an idiot and they think they can treat me like crap!! the other week i went out with a 'friend' who constantly insulted me or put me down in front of her boyfriend. no i didnt take it but i dont want to feel i always have to be on the look out for her shit. why does she feel she can treat me like this? and not just her!! other people too. i feel like my life is a constant battle, im always on guard for the next insult or piss take. i now suffer from anxiety partly because of it. is it me? or is it them? or am i interpreting thins wrongly? i dont know. simple words like 'idiot' or 'nuts' cut like a knife. passing comments stay with me for days.. or years!!

maybe you are taking some of this stuff a little too seriously? Most people are probably just kidding around, not purposely trying to piss you off.