even after 5 years, its still hurts like the moment we parted ways

when i was 14-17 i was deeply in love with my then boyfriend. we were kindred spirits, knew what another was thinking, felt each others pain, been through thick and thin together. we loved each other incredibly.. words still cant describe our connection. but anyways one day we mutually parted ways because we thought we were too young to be tied down yet and felt we needed to let one another go so we could go to school and do out own thing. We both ended up basically replacing our emptiness with other partners who we both are actually still with TO THIS DAY. I dont know if he feels the same way still but i am deeply depressed lately about this. Feelings are just getting way too intense about the past and regrets of not taking him back. It still hurts as bad as the day we parted ways. I'm starting to cry at least once a day whenever i think about this guy. Its just eating me up inside and im almost tempted to contact my ex partner to tell him how i feel but i am wary and afraid of what may happen if i do. any advice or stories of your simliar to this would be so much appreciated...

he is your ex get over him, be positive about your future and if you get depressed take med help. its always the best whatever happens i life , things happen for a reason. get over him put your mind to more psitive things like your career, friends and hobbies

I'm going through a bit of this myself. I feel like people make too little of first loves. It's your first and it's harder when things are so open-ended (like breaking up for your reasons). Are you guys on speaking terms? I'd say tell him. It's obviously painful not to, and telling him doesn't mean you have to get married, you know? You'd have closure at least. Closure's good.