Dreaming about my ex-In commited relationship now

I have searched websites and forums for help and I cant seem to come right.Story:I cant stop dreaming about my ex!! We broke up almost 5 years ago, 5! and I still find my self thinking about him every few months.But when I dont think about him I have these weird dreams about him.Most of the time its me trying to get his attention or him finaly noticing me and holding my hand until his current girlfriend arrives an ruins everything.When we broke up, I kind of initiated the break up because I was not being treated well and his mother made it so miserable because she was too attached to her boys.It was all ok until his mom made it ugly and spread rumours saying I was cheating on him thats why I broke up with him.I never got a single call, sms or email from him.he never even tried to get back with me, which was weird because I had threatened in the past to break it off and he would literally not allow me to.he would refuse to part ways, and then when it realy happened he never even tried to fix the problem.So now im in a relationship for almost 5 years, with a guy I met 12years ago and always had a place in my heart for.we jumped into this serious relationship 2 months after my break up.I feel so so guilty, because all I want to do is talk to my ex :(( whats wrong with me?!! i LOVE my current boyfriend, you could say he is the love of my life.but why cant i get over my ex? he wont talk to me.... and I dont want to be a stalker .Do i need a therapist? did i jump into this relationship too soon? these questions have been on my mind since we started dating and its not fair on him,the ex wont take me back his engaged now, I wouldnt want to get back with him anyway, his mothers a crazy person.Please help? im emotinaly torn..

Dear you should concentrate on your current because you mentioned that he is the love of your life. Dont break the trust of your current because if you continue to thinks about your past then it will break your relations with your present. I know this is very difficult but if you want to save your present then you need to forget all about your past.

Ask yourself why are you entertaining thoughts of him. Then ask yourself why you are with a man you claim to be in love with yet have thoughts of another man. Are you prisoner to men?