Confused to move on!

This is the first time when I am not able to rectify my issues. Usually I never had any major problems. I am a simple girl and I always tried to live a simple life without complications. I never expected much from anybody and just tried to be by myself always. I don't make many friends. I have few selected friends who are always good to me. I was never too close to any friend though. I met a guy online. He was one of my colleague's friend. Initially we used to chat online occasionally and later we exchanged numbers and started to text each other daily. Small conversions turned out into bigger ones. "Good Mornings" got mandatory and "Good nights" seemed so different than usual ones. I never knew how I got so addicted to him. I started falling for him and so did he for me. One night we expressed our feelings for each other. I wasn't sure whether I loved him, but I was truly addicted to him. He seemed so perfect for me, I started dreaming about my future with him. He was simple person, he wasn't that talkative and I really appreciated his timely talks. He started speaking about intimacy in a relationship. Initially I hesitated but later I let him in. Though we never spoke about sex, we shared some intimate moments just through few texting sessions which are memorable. He used to speak about living with me in future but he never introduced me to his friends or family. One day when I spoke to him about commitment, he said he is not "ready" yet, he needs to figure out his career. I agreed and replied that I'll wait till he is ready. For which he replied he is not sure whether he'll ever commit. It was then I realized that I never expected myself to have a boy friend. I expected a life partner and found him eligible, but he wasn't ready for commitment. I tried discussing with him. Asking him the reason for not committing, he never came up with a valid answer. This led to arguments and we stopped texting. I never met him because I was not sure if meeting him would change anything. He was stubborn. Later when I asked him to meet me, he refused. I tried to get over him. Tried erasing all his memories, chats, emails, texts, pictures, his number, songs we used to share etc. All vain, I still miss him every moment. I remember his phone number by heart and each and every text we shared. I do contact him occasionally, but he behaves like just a casual well-wisher. He never contacts me by himself. In order to get rid of his thoughts and move on I tried registering to matrimonial. I found few profiles interesting. I spoke to few guys but rejected them because I didn't find them as eligible as that guy. Here in my country, people match horoscope for marriage purposes and my horoscope rarely matched with anyone. Few guys rejected me for my bad horoscope without even trying to know me as a person. Just recently it matched with one guy, I spoke to him few times. He says he likes me, but I am not able to develop any feelings for him. I feel like, what if I am won't be able to give him the happiness he deserves. What if I start searching for my "ex" in him. It might create problems. My friends suggest me to know him better. I'm giving my best, but I miss my "past" guy. Please help me out with this dilemma.

Frankly, each relationship is different, and has to be resolved differently. You haven't really received 'closure' on the last because *you* wanted it to work. Chemistry can be a bit of a flash in the pan-- intense and short-lived, slow-burning and long-lasting, and everything in between. If you want to give this new guy a chance, you need to assess his merits independent of the previous guy. If you find yourself unable to do that, don't bother looking until you feel ready instead of just lonely.

Thank you so much for the reply DRJONES013 "You haven't really received 'closure' on the last because *you* wanted it to work" I totally agree with this statement of yours. Sometimes I still hope that he'll be back. (I guess it's called hoping against hope, which is good for nothing) Yeah I do want to give the new guy a chance because it's been about 2 years I'm trying to fix my past and go for a fresh start. I don't want to continue being depressed and cry over the spilled milk. I want to make my life cheerful and less complicated as it was before I met that online guy. I'm just scared, whether it'll work out or I'll end up with broken heart again!