How do we go on

hi, where do i begin? i have been in a relationship for five years with a man i love more than words can say. i moved in with him 3 months after his wife just got up and went no explanation. yes we now know that was to soon. she was his first, i am his third, the second was nothing. he got married at an early age so missed out on all the excitment of his youth. so in all the time we have been together he has always said we shouldnt have got in a relationship so fast. he loves me very much this i know. he has said the only way he can get over the loss is for us to tempory split or me let him go and even the score who i have been with. please believe me that its not an escuse just to go s....... on friday i finally said yes, iwant us to be happy together after this is all over. on saturday he went out, i knew what might happen, it hasnt though. i never thought i could feel so bad, he feels it too, because i could see his hurt. he said even though i said yes doesnt mean he can do it. he is coming home tomorrow,done nothing so far. i cant handle it this way knowing he may go with another woman but can i handle us splitting?

Im sorry something is so wrong with his thinking, he wants to possibly even the score if it happened so it can bring hurt feeling and ect. back in your relationship? If he really loved you he wouldnt dare have the need for anything