I screwed up

My girlfriend of 6 years left me 3 weeks ago today. She left for a good reason. I seem to have an anger problem which would cause me to yell at her and call her mean names. Now, I have been in love with her since 3 months into out relationship. I find her to be smart, beautiful, and a great mom. I never really showed her this. We had 2 or 3 good years together out of the 6. I have never cheated on her nor hit her. Just verbal abuse. She left saying she needs space to forgive me, and that there might be a chance to get her back in the future. Since she has left i have taken a few steps to better my life and show her i am serious. I have been going to therapy and parenting classes. I feel good about the progress i've made, but know that its a long road. We promised each other not to look for another relationship until we figure things out. Its getting hard to give her her space. We do see each other on occasion, seeing how we have a son together. When we are together, she will cuddle with me and is so nice to me. I just feel she needs to take one more leap of faith, and try to love me again. I need help keeping her out of my mind. From the moment i wake up, to when i goto bed, she is on my mind.

she needs time to figure things out,cant rush things,its her call,you should just be supportive and caring

The fact that you are trying to change for the better is AWESOME. That honestly means you are willing to change a part of you to make things work between the both of you. But you really do need to give her a little more space in the mean time, care, and support, but set her free more. It makes the times you DO see each other that much more worthwhile, and she has time to heal.