Panic filled boyfriend

SADPANDA - Jan 4 2014 at 09:44
I met my boyfriend in November of 2013 on Black Friday. We hung out a few times, and just clicked. Like all relationships we had arguments and small fights. Over stupid stuff. But a few days ago he just started to freak out. He didn't know why. He basically told me EVERYTHING. He's so use to being mistreated, he doesn't know HOW to be happy. He said he was uncertain of our relationship. Didn't know if he REALLY wanted to be with me or not. Then he went on about his old room mate saying that he is just a big problem wherever he goes. That in our relationship he's messing up all the time. After that he went on about how the guys at the shop (he worked at a tattoo/piercing shop for a while) said he always messes everything up. Just about random stuff. Went on for 3-4 hours. I finally got him calmed down enough to lay down. Then we just lied there for 2 or so more hours till I got him to sleep. The entire time I was trying so hard to reassure him, but he just threw it back in my face. He told me he didn't find me attractive for the past few days. It REALLY hurt. But I ignored it due to him in a panic. I wouldn't show what he was saying hurt me. Because I was worried for him. The next morning he was super sick. Sore all over. Nausea, puking, dizzy, everything. And he said he was certain his freak out wasn't because of me or us. But he still didn't know what it was. And since he was super sick, I had his dad come over to see if he knew what it was that was going on. Then they went out for some fresh air, and talked for a few hours. When he finally came back he wanted to talk about what him and his dad had talked about. He told me his dad basically told him that he's moving too fast. That we should take time apart. So he took me home and then he kept apologizing. After he got home he called me and was crying his eyes out. Just like the night before. Except this time it was harder to calm him down due to not being there physically. He was saying he knows what he needs to do to be happy. He just doesn't know how to do it. I tried helping him out. Started up on he doesn't know if he wants to be with me again. Asking if I'd be mad if he didn't want to. Again, it hurt.. so badly. But I wasn't going to let it affect my ability to try to help him when he really needs it. Again.. he threw it in my face. I know he really cares for me. He's shown it and said it countless times. I just don't know what to do to help him. Anyone who's maybe gone through this, please help? I just want to make sure that HE is okay over myself.