Devastated

Right where do I start, very complex relationship. I am engaged to a wonderful woman and we have a 2 year old daughter, who is my world. My partner and I have been together 5 years, thing’s aren’t great at the best of the times, but she has sacrificed a lot, moved away from her home town to be with me aprox 150 miles away, she works part time and hasn’t made many friends down here, she suffers from depression and feel’s alone, I admit I could put more effort in, I help out around the house and I’m a wonderful Father to our daughter. I have tried explaining my feelings to my partner but it never gets me anywhere, we don’t have that emotional connection we once have. I will admit now that in the past I have cheated on her, she does not know of this and I felt like utter s*** on the 2 occasions I did. My predicament, I have met a wonderful amazing woman online, she lives near me, we had been talking non stop for the last week and exchanging snapchats, she’s everything I want in a woman, exact type I go for look wise and personality to match, she also has a daughter and has said she’s been hurt in the past / wants to settle down and be someones everything – we arranged to meet yesterday for a drink, she cancelled and things have been raw since, she had been seeing some other guy who had relationship ties and I brought him into the equation which made the situation even worst. I literally cannot get her out of my head, she’s on my mind constantly and knowing that she won’t ever be mine is crushing, I have never felt this way before. It’s heartbreaking and I am trying to find the courage to move on. I don’t feel any resentment towards her, because she’s been open and honest with me, that’s all I could ask for. What a complete mess, I have let down my current partner who is a wonderful person and I have let down this other woman who now probably think’s I am a complete prat. What can I do ? Any advice appreciated.

Yep..what a complete mess. Forget about the woman you met on the internet....you owe it to your daughter's mother first and foremost to disuss your failure with your relationship with her. Advice?...look in the mirror and have a good look at yourself..we all do it somewhere, sometime in life.