Feel I can't relax with him

I like to have a bottle of wine about twice a week, my husband doesnt drink and will only drink if we stay a way the night which is every blue moon.he said he got drunk years sgo and drank alot back then so he doesnt have to do it now and doesnt feel the need to. Sometimes the drink as made me come out with things that I normally wouldnt and he doesnt like me drinking because he says I will start on him. Most of the time I dont but now I feel I cant even have a drink when hes there because hes watching me and I cant relax. I hardly ever go out for nights out and feel I would have to stay in the bedroom toahave drink so he cant see. Even if I drink lager whivh never affects me hes ssys I will start and my fsther was the same with my mother if she wanted a rrink or s cigarette she would have to hide it from him. I alwsys say he is like my father, should I carry on and think sod to him because I dont have anything else to look forward to or o out so why should I stop to keep him happy

Your husband loves You , Your a lucky women.If He didn't care He would't say anything