Why can't I get it right?

In 1 month it will have been a year since I met "HIM". We were introduced, I didnt give him a second look. Then I found out the "friend" that was trying to get it going.. was his ex! My morals, & values instilled in me,, well i DO NOT MESS WITH friends boyfriends much less EX'S. She reassured me over & over. So the time came to go hang with him. I HAD THE BEST TIME! We went in to it w/agreeing he would be Capt. Beat it up & I : ms. See ya later. Well after 3 weeks of thoroughly enjoying each other.... I felt myself catchin feelins. I made it my mission to be real & honest in EVERYWay I KNEW HOW. I ask him nicely plz dont call or come over . WELL IT DID NOT HAPPEN THAT WAY. Now after on off on off on off... I am seeing it was not infatuation, good sex, or idolizing. I TRULY CARE DEEPLY FOR HIM. However''' a lot has changed. My thoughts,feelings, no matter how hard i try.... only grow. I am so scared. the pain associated heartache, especially from "not knowing".One minute all is great & i am trying not to get comfortable. The next i cant get a text reply,a call back nothing.

The uncertainity is eating you up. Open up and speak to him. Get his views. Then you will yourself know how to go about it.

Tbh. Give it time its what i did i was in this situation. Let every one forget about you two then try again. Taking a break always works cuz if you and him really like eachother after the brake itll feel like starting over. But if its awkward it isnt ment to be. Because he or you lost feelings and that means you didnt really like this person you were jusy hyped up on puppy love.