Sad and confused

I met this girl about a year ago and we connected instantly. She is the sexiest, coolest girl I have ever met. The first time we kissed we were both so excited. We continued seeing each other and talking for many months and got to know each other very well. I've told her things I've never told anyone. We became very obsessed with each other. She tells me things like no guy can compare to me, i am very special to her, i make her so happy. Finally after about half a year pf talking, one night she comes over and makes love to me. It was amazing and so much fun. Laughing and really getting to know each other intimately. It was the first time I've ever had sex. We made love for the next three days spending all day and night together. It's the happiest I've ever been and the most fun ive ever had. I've fallen very in love with this girl. The next time we hangout she has friends over and acts like there is nothing between us, almost ignoring me a bit, and makes sure everybody thinks I am just a friend. It's really weird and awkward. When I leave I give her a hug and kiss and she says I just embarassed her. I get home and she texts me saying "I don't want a boyfriend." I am very confused and heart broken. I don't understand why she had sex with me if she didn't want to be with me. We occasionally talk and hangout but she acts like nothing ever happened. I tell her I want to stop seeing her and she objects saying she wants to be friends with me and randomly still texts me. I am so confused and I cry every day. I love her so much. I don't understand at all.

She is not ready for a relationship yet but that does not mean she will not be ready for it in the future! She wants to explore it out with you for a while before deciding. You are moving a bit faster in it than she is. Just slow down and enjoy it with her and see where its taking you both?