Trusting my fantastic boyfriend

I have been with this guy for 17 months but in the last few months i have gotten really depressed and this has meant we have split up and got together again a lot. We seem to be back together again now, but a few weeks ago i was getting suicidal, i explained this to him and that i needed his help (because my friends had made it worse) but he refused to even talk to me. I only just got through that night, he has helped me through a lot of stuff before, this is the first and only time he hasn't been there for me but I'm not sure i trust him. I really want to though, because we have been so happy together. How do i make myself trust him?

I know exactely how you are feeling. I have been in your situation, beeing depressed and suicidal. I also thought that all I needed was some help and support from my boyfriend to get through it all but finally realised that this was something I had to sort out my self with help from someone professional. You cannot force yourself to trust your boyfriend and you cannot ask him to help you. I am sure he loves you very much but to see his partner suffer like that is much more difficult than you think. You probably know exactely what you need and what you want from him for you to be able to trust him but things are not as black and white as that. Don't expect him to heal you, you can only heal yourself. I recommend you to look for professional help, I found a really good counsellor through internet. That you do not trust him has to do with your own insecurity and you will not be able to overcome that on your own. Give it a try, it will give your whole life a boost! And you will never have to feel bad about being you anymore. Your can ask your boyfriend to be patience and supportive while you are doing something to get rid of your issues. But if you will continue to let your insecurity damage your relationship then it might be difficult for him to find reasons for staying. Sara.