No little surprises

I used to get flowers from my husband I only get them every blue moon now if im lucky. He as only bought me a teddy because I kepted going on why he never bought them for me but I have for him He as written little notes to say he loves me but never gone out of his way to put it in a little card. I only get chocs on my birthday or xmas. I tell him why he as never got me teddies a cup with I love u on like I have recently with him no flowers etc He is going to spend £9 buying on some raffle tickets to win a motorbike but he wouldn't spend it getting me something he just says whatever if I say why doesn't he buy me these things. We have been together 22 years. I shouldn't of got him the cup but I like things like that and try and be romantic he doesn't. I feel I shouldn't bother anymore why should I. We went to a theme park with our kids and our oldest son was trying to win a teddy for his girlfriend my husband didn't once say to have a go to win me something and it was only a £1. We get on ok and are affectionate to each other but I feel I have given him more then he ever as with me. I am 43 hes 48. His job as come between us as he is a sales man and as had so many nights away including going to Germany for four days next week and I have resentment towards him because I have only a handful of nights away from him so when I know he as to go away again things get bad between us and its like that for awhile then it settles down. I hate him so much sometimes and want to walk out on him I even regret having met him I know I would of ended up a spinster if I hadnt. I have hated his job hate that hes not romantic and doesnt care when I tell him why he doesn't buy me teddies etc. He will take me for a meal and we stay away now and then for a night away but it doesnt compensate for all the nights and going abroad hes had from me.

Cherish every moment with him..instead of hating him because hes a busy man.yea it sucks when you see things starting to die down in a repationship..him not "opening the door for you" pulling put your chair,buying you roses..but if you know hes faithful,loyal and gets up every morning and bust his ass off for you and your family..i would say thats the biggest gift of all..i have not came across one thing in your story that was wrong..dont walk out on him because he doesnt buy you teddies and chocolate..this isnt puppy love hes a grown man and im sure he feels lucky to have you..