Love triangle

Hi! My problem is mostly mixed signals I guess... I'm in a cooking class with these two guys. One guys name is Jared and the other one is Jason. I like both of them. Jared is an alright type of guy, suicidal and has anxiety & Jason is a hot guy, but is kind of an ass and is a flirt... Jason and I are "Biffles" which means whatever, we would flirt with each other day in and day out and he'd touch my ass and what not... But today, we were messing around and he ended up kissing me, and kind of a little make out. He smiled after and was like " I can't believe you just did that" but in a joking way. Jared and I were in the "talking" point about 2 weeks ago, we both really adored each other and what not, but his parents told him he can't be in a relationship or anything till he is mentally stabled and better, which is completely understandable.. but for the past week he's tried to kiss me but we never actually did yet. My goal for today was to end up kissing Jared but the plot twist happened and it was Jason... Now the bigger plot twist is that I'm also in an online relationship with me as the catfish... I been a fucked up person for basically 2 years and i feel horrible about it.. Any advice on how i can handle that situation ^^^^ and the whole telling someone I'm fake and this whole relationship was a waste..?! Help please.

You've admitted that you've been f....ed up person for 2 years. You're halfway there to fixing your issues. Go get some counseling. It'll be a start.

I would honestly just tell the online person that you couldn't be in a relationship anymore. They don't need to know why or who you really are. I honestly wouldn't tell them anyway, because you don't know who they are either. With these jared and Jason guys...stop. Jared needs to work out his own issues before he can take you on. Jason sounds like a flirt, and that's fun for now (trust me, I know!!) but he'll inevitably hurt you.