Who I am?

I was born in Poland in huge, noise city. I spend all my life here...I'm 18 now. But I never felt I'm Polish at all...I don't like this langaue ( I use english when and where I can) I don't like this country and really I don't feel like polsih girl. With my family I want move to other country, but I don't know where exacly...Maybe Finland...it's good place for forenginers???? And when I will live in other country I don't know what to do: still sometimes speak in Polish or not( if not I can forget Polish)