I think am goin crazy

I really need an advice or i mite jux loose it.have bin dating dis guy since i completed high school am now supposed to be in my 3rd yr in college bt left in2nd yr cos my bf applied fr a scholarship fr both of us and we were supposed to leave.all of a sudden everyfin jux vanished ,de schlaship letter,de invite,de moni fr de visa everyfin..das when we both released his mum was a kinda oracle or a seer.she said i was supposed to die last yr cos der was a lot of mystery arnd me am supposed to get her gift after she dies, my bf n i were sort of betrothed to each oda..blah blah..lots of fins which i knew cud be true cos de circumstances wid which i met my bf was really weird and hes like my oda half..too too perfect..and de worse of all is..we cnt tell anione abt all dis...am bin anonymous cos i jux want smeone out of dat circle to jux say smfin..i had to get out of school wid my bf cos she needed to watch over us fr smtym togedq n ryt now shes trying to see to it we have dat future we both want widout evil forces lurking...wow..its true..i was oneday a very normal girl geeky looking frwrd to a 1st class to dis girl who dasnt even noe what life is..i tot oracles n seer n ghosts were all myths..n now i mite even be one myself..my dad n my whole family fink am soo useless cos i jux decided to leave school n be at home waitin fr smfin..bt i noe ave bin given instructions to follow am soo tired of dis..i feel like killing myself smetyms...ave gone churches so dat i cud be told smfin..de only fin i was told was dat ders smone helping me n shes helping me fr gud i shudnt give up..i really jux want smeonr to talk to...i fink i mite really give up..is dun even think late am saying makes sence to u reading unless uve bin der

That was very hard to make sense of but - questions: 1. Does your boyfriend live with his mother in her house? 2. Your saying his mother said that to achieve your future (now present) joint goal of going away to a distant school, you both would, come the time, have to surmount challenges and obstacles placed in your way by "evil forces"?