Im Lost

Im a 19 year old girl who is having a great deal of trouble asking for forgiveness and making people trust me. I was dating a guy and we were pretty happy together. we made promises to be together forever and did everything a couple does. I had previously liked this another boy who was studying with me. Though we had nothing serious, there were always certain feelings for him. I was pretty happy with the guy i was dating but somewhere i felt i had something for the boy in my class too. I always repressed those feelings fearing he never liked me back. One fine day he messaged me that he loves me too. and I in a hurry broke up with my boyfriend and began talking to the guy from class. My bf kept asking me what happened and i went on making excuses to justify the breakup. The boy in my class asked me if i had ever been with anyone or was dating someone but I said no. Anyway after some we began dating and I still never told him that i was with another guy. Eventually he got to know from other people and was very hurt. He broke up with me because I had lied to him about not dating anyone. By doing this i also hurt the guy i was previously dating. I left him alone and was not there with him when he needed me most. I was rude and unsympathetic to him. I am now trying to speak to him again and trying to regain his trust in me. But I know its not easy. I need help. I dont know where to go and what to do....Im sad and Im hurt. Somewhere i cannot forgive myself for doing what I did. I need help on how to go about this issue...

As someone who's been cheated on, I can tell you they will most likely not come back. It never works out the second or third or fourth time. The best you can do now is learn from your mistake and try to move on.

Time mends everything, this time if you ever going to a relationship.. you should be honest.