Nothing ever goes right for me

So hi my names darien.and im african american im 16 still a virgin and never been kissed. I love punk music and skating .so I suggest my self as a skater punk.im so freaking ugly and nothing ever goes right for me every time I try to skate I can't my so call friend always critize me about the way I dress(punk) he's always saying im gay and stuff which im not. I walk like a dork,look like a dork and is a dork. Everything always goes wrong for me.like what did I do so bad to acheive this negativity . I just started out being punk and have no punk friends and I really want some.why? Because by them being the subculture to they'll understand me. I pray mostly every night asking for forgiveness and more luck and never get any.I want to be an awe some skater and maybe even get sponsered but no I can't because I can't even ride it without falling off.Everytime I workout I never get any results .im afrai to take pictures cause I know im ugly.im afraid to talk to girls cause I know they wouldn't like me. I even hear rumors in school about girls who say im annoying and thry hate me and I don't even know them.I can't take this anymore my mom treats me like crap and won't even let me dress the way I do.please somebody help