Emotional wreck

So.... Me and Husband had been trying to get pregnant for 6-12 months, at Christmas I gave up, we weren't getting on... Anyway The night before New Year's Eve I downloaded an app on my phone and started chatting online to this guy who lived on,y 5 minutes away from me, also married and also unhappy, we were on and off chatting for a week, then he asked for my number to call me, I refused and said I'll call him on private number and we only continue to chat on the site.. Anyways we spoke constantly for like 5 days...on the Friday after work I was driving home and he message me saying he just see me.. So I pulled over and he pulled up behind my car got out and we met for the first time, after that he would come meet me after work and we'd chat loads and kiss, this went on for about 3 weeks, he took me out for the day one day too, One day he came to my house and we had sex, and we said we are friends with benefits and talked about how we wouldn't fall for each other. Anyways he suddenly turned one Wednesday and stopped texting and calling as much and refused to see me, starting arguments with me and saying I was all too much, I then found out I was pregnant, (by hubby not him) and I was over the moon, occasionally me and A would text call. I was emotional and bit like what did I do wrong etc. Anyways I didn't tell A I was pregnant till a month later and he said oh I already knew, how i don't know. We continued arguing about why I suddenly wasn't good enough and it was excuse after excuse. At this point I realised I was madly in love with him although he was upsetting me. I had fallen for this guy who gave me so much attention and we clicked so well when we were together. im trying so hard to get over him but I just can't.... I hate the fact he is in love with another woman and I hate my self for loving him and not my husband and makes it worse I'm pregnant. I know I'm a bad person but I just really need some advice.

Confused, Sounds like you were just a "booty call". Maybe he was'nt unhappy with his wife, but simply gave you that line. HIs actions says it all, after the sex he pulled away. He did say he only wanted a friends w/benefit with no falling for each other. Get back into your marriage and focus on becoming a good mother. Why are you willing to love someone who does'n want to love you?

(Agree!)