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Hello, my name is Ömar and I'm an 18 year-old guy I suffer from a serious affliction, so if you were able to share a prior experience you've encountered, I'd be endlessly thankful I'm a good guy, thoughtful, unassuming and I always get good marks at my school I'm not problematic or turbulent. I think that's my problem, I am not introverted but seriously, I can open up conversations especially with girls and I have never been in a relationship throughout my entire lifetime I live in a society where evil and danger is mandatory. That's why I sometimes feel grateful about not having a soulmate because as you can conclude, I can't even defend myself consequently, I can't defend someone whom I accompany and I'm overly afraid of how this problem would exacerbate in the near future. No love, no friendships, no relations, weakness and incapable of defending myself, overly afraid, extreme loner So I always think of dying since I won't be able to experience the feel incompleteness and I ask God everyday to escort my soul to the skies.. I was hoping you can give me your precious pieces of advice (:

Correction : I can't open up conversations with girls* Sorry for the typo

It isn't easy to be afraid, but you did something brave here when you reached out for help. Many, many people are too afraid to do that, but not you. So you already have more bravery than maybe you know. I can understand why you would want to protect your loved ones. That's an admirable quality. And secretly, everyone is afraid that they won't be able to protect the people they love from being hurt. There is potential hurt everywhere, even in places that aren't physically dangerous. Everyone wants their loved ones to be safe, and everyone is afraid that they're going to fail. There are lots of things to be afraid of in this world, because it's dangerous out there and there are dangerous people in it. There's always a chance that you may get hurt, but you may get hurt no matter what you do. A girl may hurt you if you do talk to her...but something else could hurt you if you don't. If you cross the street, you may get hit by a car. But if you never try to cross the street, then you'll never know what's on the other side. What I'm trying to say is, you never know what will happen unless you try. You have to take that step. And maybe you fall. Maybe you talk to a girl and she laughs at you or ignores you or tells you to go away. But you won't drop dead right then and there if that happens. Maybe that girl is having a bad day. Maybe you look like her ex-boyfriend and she hates him. Maybe it's not about you at all. So you try again. And maybe the very next girl you talk to will smile at you and talk back. But you won't know unless you try to do it. And if you never try to do it, you KNOW that you will be lonely. So you have a choice. You can stay on the path of not trying, and KNOW that you'll be lonely. Or you can try to talk a little, and maybe you don't have to be lonely. Something bad could happen some day in the future. The person you love might get hurt. You might not be able to stop it. But that's something that is possible for every single person. We all have to live with that fear. So don't let fear keep you from trying. I know you already have the strength to beat fear, because you came here and you told your story. You already did something brave. Maybe you can do something else brave tomorrow.

Hello WRITERGIRL, thank you for sharing your useful thoughts (: But I think it is my problem, let's face it. Mendacity and dishonesty didn't serve me at the beginning since I thought it wasn't my fault and I'm not a weirdo and these stuff but who am I lying to? I'm fooling myself, I think you didn't highlight my main problem my friend; I can scarcely deal with people, almost can't .. I can't even defend myself when someone offends me and they're full of defects and personal faults but I can't just talk and after being beaten by words, I begin creating scenarios in my mind of what should've happened and of what I should've said to defend myself and subsequently, I let the tears I'm containing out on the account of disgrace, lack of dignity and woe I do my best, to the fullest to preserve my dignity and prestige but I fail that's why I avoid arguments and debates, that's why I avoid relationships and love too. I dont want a girl to fall in love with a weirdo who doesn't know anything about anything I think it's generous of me because the girl whom I will fall in love with ( if that happened), will lead a dreadful life. Thanks for paying attention to my problem (: