On edge of breaking down

i don't know what to do in my life! it's like i have everything in life at the same time i have nothing. my parents and sister are alive and healthy thanks God to that. even they are living far away from me i'm use to it. i was raised by my grandmother so it doesn't bother that they far from me. i have a circle of friends which i consider as true friends. some of them are in different places now and some have family of their own but we still have communication. and even if i loss some friends i make new one easy, people likes me cause i'm friendly cheerful and humorous. I have a boyfriend, we didn't talk for a long time, which is completely fine with me, because if we will talk i would say that the relationship is over and i'm not in love with him anymore. and me being single really doesn't bother me. and lastly i have a job, that allows me to but things that i want. i know deep down in me that every thing is fine but at some point, there are times i just want my life to end. i know nothing to worry, but i just hate my existence

I think that is why existing is so interesting. You can feel that your life is fine in certain ways and empty in other ways. You are happy right, but you are sad, too. You love things and you hate things as well, and it is ok to have those feelings because it's part of existence. You are not alone...but at times it feels like you are. So, just keep on living and try to live it the best way you can so that when you do feel down, you can find ways to pick yourself up and continue living. Trust me, your existence is a great thing. TILES