High and dry

I want love, affection, praise... I want those things so badly. I have been with the same boyfriend.. for four years... The sex sucks so bad... He only focuses on himself. He will ask me to preform oral, and I wanting to please him, do it... Then he just wants to go straight to intercourse. I get no nothing. So I have been going weeks with out touching his penis. Leaving him craving my mouth, I want him to want me, touch my vagina,. He begs me to do oral, I say you do me I'll do you. He just doesn't care about pleasing me.. point of this is, he always gets his, and leaves me high and dry... And he has no problem doing this to me.. I have toys... But toys do not give affection or passion... Last few nights I refused to touch him... What do I do???

Can you try to get another boyfriend

Tell him you'll only 69 it. Then you both get what you want, also get on top and grind him that what you may actually get something, or have you tried rubbing yourself during too? or it it just straight missionary and a five pump chump? If you don't want to leave him try the 69 and grinding while in cowboy position.