Recent breakup. Everyone expects me to just be over it, should i say how i feel?

Had been with the same man for over nine years. We have been through lot together. I can't go into everything here, as it would be to long a post, but it seemed he was very confused. We had been living together and he was wanting us to be friends, and was going to be bringing the other woman into the house to do his thing with. Right now am very hurt and upset, .. But i have a bigger problem. Right now am staying with my daughter and her boyfriend, , Am to be going to my dad's in a few weeks to live. And i don't feel that it is going to work out well. We don't have the bet relationship, and he already as told me that i will be coming there to take care of him, his bills, and all the cooking and cleaning, all of his needs, . Plus everyone is telling me that i should be happy i am no longer with him, my ex, even though it has only been a few days. I feel i can't walk around with a smile painted on, and am very depressed, i also suffer from depression. . I want to tell how i really feel, and how hurt i really am, and would like to figure something else out, other then go to my dads. not sure what to do.. Also does anyone know of and fourms , or things like that. Where you can make friends, and share what you are going through.. I knew of one a few years ago, but have no idea of the name now,. I don't have any friends, or anyone to talk to. So if anyone knows of anything like that..

1) I am so sorry you’re going through all this. I have definitely been in similar shoes and it flat out blows and the painted smile really hit home with me too. 2) I just recently moved and have no one to talk to whatsoever so I am here if it helps/you’d like? And 3) regarding you not wanting to go to your dads I’d do what’s best for YOU and if that is making you more anxious / more depressed then I wouldn’t go. As far as your ex is concerned, and wanting closure, I get it who wouldn’t want that? It’s only been a few days though right? If that’s the case I’d give that a little more time for many reasons. To heal yourself a little longer before speaking or seeing him because while it sounds hard to believe with time things do get better and then maybe he would see how well you’re taking things etc. or how unemotional you are and just simply want closure etc? Just a thought.

I would really like that. It would be nice to have someone to talk to. Is there a way to message on here? I think i really need to talk to my daughter, i just don't feel i can go to my dad's just the thought of it has me , even more depressed, and i don't feel i can handle it.. I agree, i don't know if i ever want to speak to my ex again, and do need sometime to heal, right now just need to work on me, and try to heal..