Please give suggestion I am all alone

hii few days before my life was totally perfect bt as everyone knows happiness are short lived and no ones life is perfect.My first problem wch torments me alot these dayz is my boyfriends attitude we have been in a relationship since 1.5 years and we kno each oder very well but he does nt want to commit anythng to me and he says dat there are much possibilities dat we wont get married.Of late he soon gets irritated and pissed off with me inspite of the fact dat i didnt commit any such nonsense talk or something else.actually i am very very emotional and i really love dis guy like anythng i love him alot he even knows this very well and i kno if i will have a break up with dis guy i wud nt die bt i kno my life will have no meanings left without him. i really want to spend my life with dis guy bt i dnt kno about him. i am 20 pursuing graduation average lukin a bit more healthy looking girl and my boyfriend is very smart luking dude kind of a boy.so i also have dis insecure feelings regarding dis. what shud i do hw shud i deal with such kind of feelings dat makes me feel dejected and very depressed. whwn i can convice my parents why cant my boyfren too convince his parents too ? my second problem is dat my rum mate has jst shifted to another room though we had no problems or any such disputes bt i feel very upset bcz of dis the room is like its very depressing.... in college also i have no friends and i stay away from my family in a hostel and everything seems to be very upsetting and messy i have to clear GRE and MBA entrance exam bt i am not able to concentrate anymore i am very helpless please help me please.....

Hello Sad Soul, It is difficult to feel so down and emotional.....here are some (((hugs))) for you! It's hard for me to give you any advice with your boyfriend; I hope you and he can communicate and talk things over so you know where things stand. While breaking up with someone is very difficult, it can also open new possibilities that can be better than you can ever imagine right now. So take a deep breath and be strong as you face your future. Most importantly, it sounds like you are in need of some support from family and friends, but are not able to connect with them right now. In that case, please turn to a counselor or teacher in your college...there are many people in your life that would be happy to help you, even just someone to talk to. So please reach out to them. Do not suffer alone in your feelings of depression. Good luck to you, Tara