Isolated

Im just comin on to say that I am feeling very lonely, not for the first time and nor will it be the last. I live in an area where noone understands or appreciates me, and frankly am treated like a joke. I am financially trapped here, only a major lottery win will get me out of the area I live in . I CANNOT ANY LONGER make the most of my situation, I am bored rigid with my own company but I dont fit in with others. I dont drink alcohol or smoke, dislike loud noise and football and I seem to be a pariah. Ive given up on education as it has brought ,e nothing but disappointment, and doesnt make people take me any more seriously. I would like to be more than someone spares the odd five minutes for when they are not too busy. I am too depressed to do much these days. Nothing is worth the effort( I am on medication, and under a psychiatrist but they are useless). There is no point in changing because all psychiatrists around here try to be as useless and uncaring as each other, and changing GPs is a waste of time because they only lead to the same psychiatrists. I cannot afford to go private. I am bored rigid with everything these days, I am not interested in birds, flowers, trees and any of this rubbish people come up with. Ill admit I want something much more serious than talking to strangers about the weather which i find boring, tedious and irritating and a complete waste of breath. weather has no effect on my mood - summer is a very depressing time because Im not part of a circle that understands or accepts me and I will not be seen dead going alone on holiday, even if I could afford it. I just wish people would accept me as I am instead of wanting to be something else. Some of us arenever going to be film stars or footballers, or good looking. But bdoes that mean Ive got to be alone? Finally dont bother with religion I am not interested and its a load of hypocritical baloney any way.

GET OVER IT!!!! people that say there depressed and shit are just anoying people that want them to feel sorry for them. when its there own fault. yes you are right that some of us arent going to be film stars n footbalers, or good looking, but there a millions of people that arent and they are still happy. you also said that you dont want to change your personallity for any one, but if you want to make friends your going to have to do something, cos what your doing now obviously aint working.