Toxic relationship staying for reasons

So I have been with my husband for almost 14 years. Here Lately he been drinking himself stupid every single day and I feel like he is just in a downward spiral. I don't want to leave because Ive been sick for the past 5 yrs and he has been there for me. I know I might sounds a little ungrateful, but I'm not. I love him and just don't know if I stay by his side while he self-destructs. I am Very conflicted. I feel honor bound to stay because of his past loyalty, but also want to leave right now because of the toxicity. He is only sober and awake like 4 to 5 hrs a day and spends at least 40 minutes of that puking. I try to talk to him about seeing a doctor we fight, we yell and it goes nowhere. I know he loves me, but I don't think he loves himself much.

You can't help anybody who won't help themselves regardless of who they are. If your husband is vomiting daily he really should be under medical care but again, that's his decision. In your situation, you need to look out for yourself as your husband has his own 'mistress' & until he hits the bottom & does something about it, then you're basically on your own even though you're are still married. Your marriage is toxic because of you trying to help him & you both end up arguing & of course, as you post, it goes nowhere. The alcohol is doing all the talking & all the damage rather than what love & respect that you guys have for each other. Ask yourself if you're in love with your husband or you just love him for who he is & maybe that'll help you decide which way to go. You either put up & shut up to keep the peace or you make a decision to benefit you because they only way you benefit your marriage is to stay quiet. Can you do that?

Yeah everyone swears by something or the other but what's your issue? Why would you post such bs on this forum??

"Yeah everyone swears by something or the other but what's your issue? Why would you post such bs on this forum??" Huh? Was that in response to an abusive poster whose post has since been deleted?

but of course it was SM..there's a few of the blighters around lately.