Is it normal to be aroused by women even though Im straight?

In the past three weeks i I’ve questioned my sexuality multiple times but I’ve always ended up saying I’m straight because I could never picture myself marrying or seeing a woman in a romantic context in general. However I’m extremely aroused by these small women. I consider myself straight, but my nipples go hard while thinking of these women's hands at me lol. It's very confusing. I don't necessarily want to label myself as straight but also don't want to label myself as anything really?? I am 41 year old married woman. Unfortunately, we have been in a non-intimate marriage for quite a while. I have two son's. . I am tall and large! I'm on the curvy side I always feel like I take up too much space if that makes sense? I'm 6ft and curvy - I've got massive boobs, a big butt/hips etc. I’m very voluptuous. I get lots of stares and compliments. I’m pretty sure i am an eye magnet for lots of men & women as well, but they’re intimidated by my height. In my teenage/young adult years I've struggled with feeling bigger than everyone, men included. But now I Own my height and curves , I sometimes feel down about my height, but I quickly snap out of it when I know people would die to have height like me. I'm more comfortable in myself now generally but there are occasions when I'm in a small space where I really feel like I take up too much room. I realised I was always told I was too big (family usually) growing up, and actually I was just tall as a kid. Now I'm actually big.. My husband is a successful businessman. I come from old money. I grew up rich. I admit that i am used to a lot of money and expensive things because of this. I am dressing up everywhere (even for grocery shopping ). The whole shebang, satin/leather/shiny pants/skirts, satin/silk blouses, pantyhose, shapewear, high heels, full make up on, be it morning, noon or evening. Most of my outfits are well-coordinated in terms of color I love my style and get lots of compliments on my clothes. . My clothing makes me stick out like a sore thumb. I am always dressed up to the max, on high heels, full make up on. However, some acquaintances think I overdress for daily activities. On the other hand I feel confident this way, so i don't want to dress down . . About two years ago my husband started having difficulty maintaining an erection. At first I didn’t think much of it because he always had an excuse like, “I drank too much”, “the condom was too uncomfortable”, “I got distracted by (blank)”. It was happening about half of time we had sex and I started to get frustrated about it because he would never seek help or see a doctor. We then ended up having a dead bedroom for months on end, the longest lasting about a year. .When ever I try and initiate sex my husband is never the mood or tells me he feels to tired and maybe tomorrow after he takes a shower. Of course tomorrow never comes or he takes a shower at a time when sex isn't possible. When ever i am alone in the house i masturbate. This is just painful to me. It hurts to know that my husband just doesn't want to have sex with me. . About two months ago we moved here in this smaller town. I don’t work . I don’t need to . So out of boredom i started attending these women in wine parties. I've always had big boobs. I easily had the largest chest in my high school. But I was one of the "lucky ones" that's never had her boobs or butt grabbed, touched, or jiggled before i met this small woman Deb. I’m too intimidating. Probably because of my social status, my size and my bitch resting face. I apparently intimidated a lot of people which discouraged harassment. About three weeks ago i attended this women in wine party . I arrived there. I was wearing a red long sleeve satin blouse buttoned up to the top tucked into tight red satin pants and 5 inch red shoes. I had full make up on. I passed a group of older women and one of them this short skinny Korean woman in her mid 50's Deb grabbed my ass and I was shocked. I didn't react at all, just turned around and kept walking as they all laughed. About ten minutes later Deb took a picture of me , and when I asked her what the hell she was doing, she grabbed my boobs with her both and told me that i am the talk of the town because of my dressing style and my size and she just wanted to show her friends to talk about whether they were real. Then Deb told me that she is straight married woman , but she is obsessed with my boobs, my clothes, my height , ,my butt . She started repeatedly groping me. She'd grab them, poke them, stare at them, push them together, talk about them, shit like that. Everyone else laughed because they were mostly drunk women who think boobs are funny. I was just letting her. I always pictured fighting and getting angry too, but when I was actually in that position, I totally froze. I didn't know what to do, I was in shock. As i was leaving this small woman Deb just came up to me and slapped my ass. Surprisingly i got extremely aroused. Seven days ago i was in front of the grocery store. I was wearing my short sleeve purple satin blouse with waist tie buttoned up to the top, black leather leggings and 5 inch heels purple shoes. I had full make up on. Deb walked out of the grocery store , came up to me and squeezed them hard as if it was a greeting. She just held my boobs and talked about them. She was commenting on how nice they were and she wished she had boobs like mine, etc. I laughed it off . People were passing by and watching. This nice older woman grocery store owner was watching through the glass. I was embarrassed, but extremely aroused again. Then Deb slapped my ass as I was walking into the grocery store. Six days ago i attended this regular women in wine party . I was wearing a pink short sleeve satin blouse buttoned up to the top tucked into tight lilac satin pants and 5 inch pink shoes. I had full make up on. Deb showed up there. She would brush past me. She had a quick feel of my ass. Then this short skinny, kinda masculine , brown haired , pale woman in her mid 40's Ann, walked up to me, just reached up with both hands and GRABBED my both boobs for a solid several seconds exclaiming “Wow. They are so massive and soft. There is something about the elegant look and silky feel.” I laughed it off but man does that aroused me that she felt that was okay. I was so confused, but i was getting wet again. Ann loudly said my nickname from now on is "community chest" . So these two women Deb and Ann continued touching, squeezing , jiggling, slapping, grabbing my boobs and butt, and talking about my boobs there in front of all these women and I gave up trying to care. . The next day i was at the grocery store. I was wearing a white short sleeve satin blouse buttoned up to the top tucked into tight red satin pants and 5 inch see through shoes. I had full make up on. This older short skinny gray haired woman in her late sixties small grocery store owner Beth told me that she saw Deb groping me in front of her store a week ago. Then she asked if she could touch my boobs, while already making grabby hands about 3 inches from them. This was made "worse" by the fact that this girl her employee was right there to see her employer ask this, also there were like 3/4 other people in the store. She proceeded to grab my boobs. I kind of froze in the moment and didn’t really know how to respond, especially since we were literally at her store and I didn’t want to make a huge scene. Then later Inside the grocery store she kept putting her hand on my butt , she was laughing and then she slapped my ass as I was walking out of the grocery store with bags of groceries and they all laughed? I was so confused, but i was getting wet again It feels like these short skinny women suddenly think my big body is public property. But i love it. Think I've found what I've been missing. I am a straight woman , but i guess I have a loose free use unspoken agreement with these small groper women. It involves these women groping me “against my will” in public and basically forcing me to get wet and aroused. They can grope me through clothes in public whenever they want with minimal restrictions, no matter what I'm doing at the time. These small women can grope me through clothes in public whenever they want, without warning or warmup. This type of dynamic can put you in a constant state of alertness because your brain never knows when you could be groped . Personally, I love this. A Ever since the first women in wine party i attended , I’ve had three different women ask if they can feel them, make weird comments, or just straight up touch them without asking. I don't feel sexually attracted to these groper women at all and that’s one of the biggest reasons why I’ve ruled out the possibility of me being anything other than straight but im not sure at this point. But i can picture myself having sex with these three women Deb, Ann and Beth and its so confusing. I am aroused by their hands. I got very physically turned on just being groped by them through clothes in public. They just love to grope my titties and ass in public as much as if not more than any man. I was sexually aroused by these women's hands and i am often fantasizing about being with these three women, but not romantically. I definitely don't find these three women attractive . I think what i find attractive can have more to do with them groping me in public. I'm definitely not attracted to them but at the same time I'm interested in sex with them if that makes sense. Maybe it is because i am in a sexless marriage.