I'm pretty sure I'm at rock bottom... or almost there

To get the true flavour of this I will start about 2 years ago. April 2011 I was in a car accident, hurt my shoulder and back and causes massive headaches. My dad then passed away two weeks later. My toddler's father then decides to bring me to court for 50 percent custody, my grandfather then dies, I experience financial problems, my uncle dies, I slip into sever depression and have to stop working, more financial problems, more court with my toddler's father, more fighting, and now my husband of seven months has decided to leave me. Now I will more than likely lose my house because I cannot afford it on my own, will probably be taken back to court when my girl's father finds out the marriage broke down, haven't even finished paying for the wedding yet, of which he didn't bother helping out financially with and my part time job told me yesterday that until I get my depression sorted I can't work. I really think this is the bottom. I have suffered so much death and loss in the past two years, so much stress and agony. I can't seem to catch a break. I am looking at losing my house and declaring bankruptcy. I am looking at another battle in court based on not being able to provide a stable home for my daughter, I don't know what to do. If I didn't have my daughter the decision would be easy, but I can't leave her. I am just really sad. I don't have anyone I can talk to and I don't know what to say. I guess I'm just venting but my heart hurts so much. I don't know what I did to deserve this. I certainly hope I had fun for this karma. I need something, I need something to give me some hope. I just want to sleep but I lay awake. I just want to stop hurting, I need something good to happen.

Hey...wow, what a situation you're in, it's no doubt you're feeling so low. I don't think there's anything I can say to make you feel better, but I have been at rock bottom myself, so I know how bad it feels. And I too have a daughter, who always pulls me through, if it weren't for her I would have ended things a long time ago. At the moment, I still feel like if it wasn't for her then I'd do it, but I've also realised that I actually want to value my life a bit more now, and so I'm doing some soul searching in order to (hopefully) find some peace and contentment in my life. Whatever stuff you're going through, however tough, YOU WILL BE OK. As mother's we are resilient and could fight the world if we had to, but please don't give up, and do what you have to do to start valuing yourself NOW. Check out http://www.tinybuddah.com. I go on there regularly when I'm feeling really low, and there's always something on there I can relate to that makes me feel a little bit better afterwards, just little quotes or other people's ways of dealing with life's difficulties. If you want to talk further, just say so and we can chat on here if you like. Keep your chin up :-)

Hang in their hunni it obviously feels pretty shit right now but it will get better and there's allways light at the end of the tunnel. I know it sounds cheesy but its true there allways is and when your in a happier place your be able to make light of it. You have obviously had alot thrown at you al at once and it takes time to grieve. But i understand that right now your daughter is the most important thing right now. So dont dwell over your job accept it as something that was going to happen and now you are going to focus and sort out the other things by process of elimination its easier this way your find your stength and you need to think positvely all poitive no negative thinking. You need to also accept that will lose your house but why would you want to live there anyway because thats where you lived with him and you need to make this a new start and find a nice place so focus on that first and paying what you need to do is pay for the wedding pay half then

Hang in their hunni it obviously feels pretty shit right now but it will get better and there's allways light at the end of the tunnel. I know it sounds cheesy but its true there allways is and when your in a happier place your be able to make light of it. You have obviously had alot thrown at you al at once and it takes time to grieve. But i understand that right now your daughter is the most important thing right now. So dont dwell over your job accept it as something that was going to happen and now you are going to focus and sort out the other things by process of elimination its easier this way your find your stength and you need to think positvely all poitive no negative thinking. You need to also accept that will lose your house but why would you want to live there anyway because thats where you lived with him and you need to make this a new start and find a nice place so focus on that first and paying what you need to do is pay for the wedding pay half then

Continued message pressed by mistake anyway only pay have unless it is your name down to pay if not pay half and they might try and get him to pay the other half is you agree to pay half. And geft that eliminated and go to your doctor sooner the better to if your not all ready having it the help. Either way you need to go to your doctor to talk to a counselor anyway snd believe me this will really help you, you should also think of ten things every morning that you are happy/grateful for. It might seem odd at first but it is proven to work it uses the positive side of your brain and becomes a natural habit, and accept the divorce as something that will happen so get that sorted and over as quick as possible and you and your little girls father might get shared custody but see it as something that will happen and its something you will need to accept. And as you get more settled in to your new place with your daughter you can continue to grieve this is something that the counselor can help you with. And you need to make sure that your eating and sleeping properly because if you dont you will alot worse

Arrrrgh. Yeah because if you will not be able to focus properly and you will feel more depressed. So hang in there there you can do it and i wish you all the best hun. Hope this helps.

Continued message pressed by mistake anyway only pay have unless it is your name down to pay if not pay half and they might try and get him to pay the other half is you agree to pay half. And geft that eliminated and go to your doctor sooner the better to if your not all ready having it the help. Either way you need to go to your doctor to talk to a counselor anyway snd believe me this will really help you, you should also think of ten things every morning that you are happy/grateful for. It might seem odd at first but it is proven to work it uses the positive side of your brain and becomes a natural habit, and accept the divorce as something that will happen so get that sorted and over as quick as possible and you and your little girls father might get shared custody but see it as something that will happen and its something you will need to accept. And as you get more settled in to your new place with your daughter you can continue to grieve this is something that the counselor can help you with. And you need to make sure that your eating and sleeping properly because if you dont you will alot worse