What was it, and can I salvage our friendship?

Ok. Thanks for reading this. Please bear with me as it will be quite long.. Ive known a guy (married man) for years as our kids were at school together. We spoke on and off. In september 2011 we became friends on facebook along with other parents as our kids had mostly gone to new schools and it was a way of keeping in touch. He and i hit it off immediately and within a week or so we were talking every day all day. then texts etc followed. he told me everything and was extreamly open...toldme about the state of his marraige (which i know is true) and about his past and everything. we also flirted as there was attraction there. this went on for 5 months then in feb 2012 we actually kissed...was a bit of a "wow" moment for both of us. from there obviously things progressed...we saw eachother twice a week for a few hours but talked all day every day...including morning and night messages. wherever he went he told me...shared so much with me. he told me on several occasions he thought about me all the time and i often got messages saying he missed me.... Now after a few months i started falling for him and thats when it started going wrong....i became jealous and paranoid and accused him of lying etc..(ive had a bad experience in relationship before). this put a massive strain on us obviously . so over the last 4 months or so things have just become worse...hes clammed up...wont even give straight answers and i feel like im constantly questioning. ive asked if it was "just an affair" to him...he says no but wont say what it was. he still tries to talk to me every day which i dont understand. from what he says it seems he would have just been friends and thats all........but says what happened happened... im so confused. was it just a friendship and the lines got blurred? and if thts the case why keep coming back and say he thought about me all time etc? any help would be greatly appreciated

Hi, Try to open your soul and look inside, people often dont like themselves and this is a problem. First of all you need to be in peace with yourself and then take charge of other things. So dont get me wrong I`m sure your a wonderfull person but you need to stop asking question about others and look at yourself first. Nobody is perfect but we can be more then we are always so go ahead and shine TIGGER1969 and forget the past. Look at the future and remember you have a great life, great kids and a wonderful personality. Start with small things like something you both like, always rediscover yourself and him, keep learning from each other and dont forget: smile.

thanks for that. im so glad you didnt concentrate on the fact hes married. we never meant for this to happen. hes never had an affair before and neither have i in previous relationships. things are so raw and painful right now...we just seem to be going round in circles... i just dont understand if its not just an affair...what is /was it?

Hi, Think yourself you`re that man, how will u react ? What would you do ? Will you be ok with everything ? Always be a good person and be honest with yourse lf and others. You have your answers inside u, shine and find them. Smile TIGGER1969