Was I date raped?

I know its long but i really need some help. i recently starting thinking about something that happened in the past when i was seventeen i was going through some stuff and got into the wrong crowd i was a virgin and all the other girls were well experienced and i later realised that they used and bullied me but at the time i had very low self esteem. Anyway the main kept saying in other words that i needed some sex then one day we were in a one of her guy mates car and they stopped at a house and said that this guy would have sex with me. And then one night us and some other people were round his house. The guys went out and when they came back they made some drinks in the kitchen and i was offered it i refused and when i offered the guys it and they each shook their heads and after that i blacked out the next thing i remember was us all sitting around smoking. And when it came to leaving i was being sick and could hardly walk and the next moring i felt so ill. A few days later the girl told me that i had sex with two of the guys one being the guy that wanted to have sex with me and she told me that she had a video of it she started playing it and i could hear two people having sex but i was too embarrased to ever look, she kept saying watch it. I was so worried and wondered if i had been date raped because i normally remember everything when i get drunk and never usually get hangovers and i also missed my period and she looked worried although luckily i wasnt pregnant and the other thing that made me think that it might be true is that another guy who said he saw it but diddnt have sex with me but had the video on his phone i diddnt see it but when i asked him to delete it he wouldnt he said that one of the boys that did sent it around his school. But this girl told this boy that he had done things that he diddnt when he was drunk. And i allways thought that when your date raped you can hardly do anything. so can anyone tell me what they think might have happened.

I think the best way forward for you is to discuss this with a counsellor at a Rape Crisis Centre. They will help with any questions about filling in the gaps, and help you with deciding what you want to do about this, if anything. It will be in the strictest confidence, and they won't put any pressure on you regarding taking action over it. It's obviously on your mind, and talking with a counsellor could help you with deciding to take some action, or process it in a way that allows you to put it behind you.

Hi Laurenxxx, You were drugged and raped and Skywalker is right. Go on line and find free rape counseling. I was sexually assaulted and seduced by means of fear of reprisal from a professor at my college as a young man. I am not telling you what to do because it is different for everyone, but I never felt so healthy as the day I got him fired for sexual assault. Do consider seriously turning this person in. I have recently chatted with many women in rape situations who can't afford counseling. I felt out of my depth but still wanting to help. So I trolled the internet and found what I think are some good websites and chat rooms that may help you get better advice than here at peoples problems. Here they are: http://www.giftfromwithin.org/ http://www.aftersilence.org/forum/ http://centers.rainn.org/ To the best of my knowledge these are free and the last one will help you find a center that can help. Your bravery to come here for help inspires me so I thank you for that. You have helped make my day a little easier to endure.