Tired of everything

6 months ago I lost my job that I had for 20 years. I didn't realize that all of my friends were co- workers (now former) and I have quickly noticed that none of them were true friends. Guess the only thing we had in common was work. I am looking for a new job but nothing so far. I am ok financially, just cut a few corners here and there. I watch my youngest child now during the day and the days have gone by fast. I am feeling increasingly isolated. I also take care of a grandparent who has Alzheimer's. it's really hard to have / maintain friendships when people don't understand any of the above. I do have siblings that live near but I find myself isolating from them as well. I have noticed they are very critical of everything I do. Whether it is taking care of grandparent, finding a job or taking care of a toddler. I don't ask them for advice. I feel often that they talk about me when I am not present , although I have no proof. Being the youngest sibling who was still in high school when my parents divorced I have never felt encouragement from any of my family. When criticizing statements are made to me I just change he subject to avoid a argument in front of my kids. 20 years ago I had confidence galore and now I have none. I am lucky to have a loving husband and kids but, I tend to worry that something will happen to ruin that also. Help please!

If ANYONE criticises you, listen to what it is that they are saying, if there is no merit to it then fuck them. Tell them to either be useful or to fuck off and let you handle it. Do something fun with your husband and kids because a family that plays together stays together. And maybe something terrible will come along and ruin it all but there is no use in worrying about it, deal with things as they come.