Constantly thinking about my ex

I have been with Mr C for 13 years, we have 4 kids together. Early in our relationship Mr C was in jail. We split and I started dating Mr A which was also a long time friend. Mr A and I split after a stupid argument . 3days later Mr C was home from jail and we got back together. Now all these years later I find myself constantly thinking of Mr A whom I still see around town, we also still have mutual friends. We make small talk when we see each other but I know in his eyes he has something more to say..I find myself thinking of him and the what if..I feel having a convo with him for closure would be the right thing..I'm afraid of what could happen. I do not want to ruin my relationship or my family but for my own sanity can't go on like this. I love Mr C and is everything I could ever want in a man and father to our kids. I'm so confused!

Hi! I agree with Gwendo, I do that a lot. ;) You wanting to get closure is wanting to get the "what never could be" out of the way. Which may lead to things you can't take back. You sound like you are happy and in love with Mr. C so Mr. A is just a different time in your life that is the past now. So let it be in the past and don't let Mr. A pull you back in with what he MIGHT say. Your head knows where it wants to be so listen to it. Good luck and hope that helps. :)