I hate being sensitive

I am a very sensitive person, I wonder how I survived so many years being so sensitive.. I am 28. I will try to be very honest to myself when I write this. Ours is an arranged marriage and we are married for 2.5 years my husband comes from a very old fashioned family where women are very adjusting, haven't done any jobs, bear their husband with love and compassion. My husband is not a bad person but is very lazy, gets angry very easily, a big critic, bothers about silly things and not at all a fun loving person. He is very dependant on me, previously I used to cook, take care of all the household things, but these days I started revolting, started demanding him to help me and started expecting more from him because finally after 1.5 years we are staying together as my husband was jobless till last Friday, he got a job from may first week..4 months with me, he never got up from his sofa till I come from office. I cook almost everyday, both breakfast and curry, try to keep my house neat, but he helps me only if I ask and that too for the time he is in kitchen for some or the other silly things, keeps complaining or speaks harshly(that is how I feel)..but he says that is his normal tone..what I expect is since he knows from morning 7 till night 10 I try my best to do everything that is needed, why can't he come and help me, and be nice when he speaks, and the most frustrating thing is he has 2 faces and 2 tongues..when he is nice, he is so loving that I never got so much love from anyone. But the other side is so damn irritating, I feel like crying like hell...and recently I am feeling so traumatised, I behave so worst i started hating myself...he is provoking me to my worst side...we stayed in different locations for 1.5 years and now we will be staying away again as he got a job in different location, we thought we should be nice and try to enjoy these 10 days and we fought again. He does so little and feels so righteous to show his anger, then what should I be doing for doing so much....he has such damn expectations that even after I cook and keep everything ready, he expects me to put everything in a plate and give it to his hand..I blame his parents and sisters for this, they never taught him any household responsibilities...we don't go out, watch movies, absolutely nothing..anyone would call this a boring life, but I am happy with it Bcoz I am not a party animal, also i feel restless and tired most of the time, taking vitamin supplements after talking to GP and all I need is helping hand who don't stress me out by depending on me too much and one who can soothingly talk. I think my problem is I am very sensitive, childish, no maturity, not adjusting, cry a lot, feminist thoughts, high expectations, the moment someone hurts me, I can't forgive or forget, will push them away..I have pushed many people away from my life like that, since this time it is my husband I am not able to push him away My husband problem is very lazy, expects and depends on me too much, always irritates me, speaks loudly or harshly, will be very nice the next day after our fight which will make me longing for that temporary character...has old fashioned beliefs, a critic, a very boring person with boring lifestyle.. And if u want to get a better insight of me, I am now worried what replies I would get and I will be hurt to strangers' comments. I hate myself for being so damn sensitive We are fighting so much these days I hate to live like this, what should I do? Clearly both of us are messing so much that I don't think we can continue like this

You're in the beginning of your marriage. I think to should wait these 10 days out and wait for him to come back from his away job and see if anything has changed. You need to also communicate better. & if things don't work out after this, then let him go, this is just a sign for the future. Also, you shouldn't be downgrading yourself, that doesn't hep the situation any more.