Going crazy over her

I am totally stuck on stupid because I am working on a marriage that I feel will never change. I decided to stay with a man who cheated on me because I was involved with a married man for 3 years, 9 years prior to being married I and felt that KARMA was due when my husband cheated on me. Now I feel he is taking me for granted. He thinks now that it is okay to stay out like he is single and when I explode he will change for a couple of days but than right back to his same old BS which makes me bitter. Now the flip side is that my mother died on 2/23/13 and I have been telling him before she died that my old vengeful ways where resurfacing and I am looking for blood but he choose to IGNORE me. So would I be wrong to seek Solace from someone else because I am now feeling NEGLECTED?

It's not ok if he ignores you let him know you love him but its not ok to treat you like that he should be willing to listen and be should care and be there for u