Trapped and stuck please help

My boyfriend tried committing suicide last week. He slit his wrist and everything. His parents took him to the ER which then took them to the psychiatric ward. This is his 2nd time there. I have no contact with him whatsoever which i completely understand. That he needs to focus on himself right now and everything. But its eating me alive. He's like my best friend and its like loosing him completely like this is horrible i feel trapped and alone. I relapsed the other night and i feel horrible about it but so much is going on I'm overwhelmed. The other day his mother callled mine saying right now him and i need to focus on ourselves right now and whenever i asked my parents to clarify if him and i are together or not they wont respond. I feel like im in denial about this whole thing. i've been crying for two weeks straight now and it seems like everyday just gets harder and harder. Im just confused and need help.

he has his parents,they will take care of him,just be supportive and stay calm