Why should I be the one sick

I am top of my class as a college student. I also create works very well . But here is the thing, I have many illnesses and the numbers of my different illnesses just goes up like every year. I am now questioning my faith in God why , why me , I am someone who have many things I want to accomplish in life , things I know I can do and make things better , I don't waste time and my life to bad vices etc. But I just don't get it why should I be sick inspite knowing I can do a lot better things than others. It socks knowing there are people who kill, there are terrorists , there are teenagers who waste their days to useless thing, but they aren't hindered with any physical sicknesses. I just need an advice to what I should do or think. Im really suffering an emotional pain and stress right now. T_T

As someone who's also living with various chronic conditions and also trying to make it in the academic life, I might relate. The way I see it is that these things, for me, help me to push harder than I would if I was totally healthy. I feel as though I have more to prove and so I tend to go a bit farther than my healthy peers. It doesn't make the stress go away, but it's just one healthier way of looking at things.

Oh my , thankyou for this "help me to push harder than I would if I was totally healthy. I feel as though I have more to prove and so I tend to go a bit farther than my healthy peers." That just changed something. thanks for the reply . you helped me a lot with that phrase.

You're welcome! I've definitely had thoughts similar to yours, and that's my way of looking at it more positively.