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I've been with what I think Is the most amazing man in the world for 4 years. He has been in and out of jail and for the most part of our relationship has been addicted to heroin and I have supported him through that. I love this man and think he loves me too but am constantly confused. Prior to me he had only one other sexual partner or so he says and this was his step mother whom apparently seduced him in his sleep but from what I've learnt it was rather consensual.anyone I have been nothing but honest with this man and guilty of maybe doing that too much n he knows that. Late last year I gave birth to our first child and he h been chasing other woman since she was a month old. This whole thing with him makes me wanna die. I caught him cheating with a prostitute whom he paid to suck his cock and the rest and then again another time he stayed at doe other prostitutes house and I was just supposed to suck it up. I never thought I could move on after that but I did cozi don't want our daughter to have a shit perspective of men. N sadly last but not least i LOVE him still.

Your emotional attachment is understandable given that you have a child together. What you MUST realize is that there is too much unstable emotional baggage on his part. You have to realize that you are a strong independent woman who can find the right person to share a life with. Only then will you understand real love!