Not sure what to do or how to do it...

I've been with him for 3 years. I've left out of the state 2 times but I come back to him. I'm not happy at all, but I love him. Anyway, I was gone for 3 months I'm back in the home that I was living in with him before I left, but this time I'm hiding, I'm not supposed to be here so he keeps me hidden from his dad, his mom and his sister who also live here know but for some weird reason his dad can not know I'm staying here again. So I'm sneaking around while they are home(his parents) when they are at work I can roam free. I don't have anywhere else to go, I have no car no job since I've been back and no cell phone . My kids are an hour and a half away , I just know that I'm not going to live like this I can't live like this. Sitting in a room while he(boyfriend) does whatever. Oh and there's no tv in the room either, even if there was I couldn't watch it while they were here. Now the positive in this situation is I have windows I can look out, a lot of my belongings are here so it still feels like its my room. I have my iPad, a roof over my head and I have food to eat if I ask for him to bring me some. Usually it's Mon.- Fri. from 6:30am to 3:30 am that I have to be out of the room, but weekends I'm stuck. I don't know anyone here in this town. We never go out anywhere to do anything fun. I just am lost, I'm an adult, I'm not dumb I've been looking for and applying for jobs via the internet, no luck. But do I try and work in this town when I'm hopefully not going to be living here ? There are so many unanswered questions and I don't know where to begin. Please any advice/help?

you need to be independent,this will get you back.Be strong and look for any opportunities around,get a friend to help you and coun.