Ex-boyfriend

I went out with the loveliest guy for 2 and a half years and then found out he didn't want to continue a relationship out of high school. At first I was really upset but I understood and respected the decision and we broke up on good terms, becoming good friends again just a week or so later. I loved it so much that we could be friends again (we were only texting at this stage and I had seen him once so far with my whole family present, so no time alone) but the first time we properly hung out again we both got quite drunk and my friend's party and he came back to my house and we slept together. We agreed at the time that we would just have a kind of half friends with benefits relationship and I thought it'd be okay but after sleeping together again last night I got worried that I would never be able to fully get over him if we continued to have sex, because it was so nice and I fell back in love with him more and more every time we did anything. I called him today after a lot of deliberating and worrying and told him I didn't think I could do the benefits thing anymore, thinking that he wouldn't mind since he wanted to break up in the first place, but he was actually really upset. I know he doesn't "have the right" but I don't want to hear any of that because it's just not the way we are, we're very close, but I feel awful now and also kind of touched that he still has feelings for me. He said he didn't really ever want to get over me and now I am desperate to call him back and tell him to forget everything and continue how we were.... am I making a really dumb decision and should I leave it as is? Am I messing with his emotions too much? Please help!

hey , as a man I can say that it is only comfortable to have you as a sex friend and he might even say to you things you might want to hear cause that's what men do until they find the girl that can handle their bullshit or find the closest girl of their dreams even they might not be aware to it. so I advice to move on and find another to hang out with and start asking yourself why does he have so much influence on. once you will find the answer to that then you will first overcome him and second you will find a much better match to you and your needs that are not met by him probably. good luck to you