Am I being black mailed?

in 2011 i fell in love with a married man have one child was much older than me he used to protect me, care me, i was ready to compromise at any level , i fought with my mom that i will marry him...but later on because of his family problems we both decided to keep space from each other, i had alot of friends boys and girl but soon every boy get attracted to me wanna share relation with me . but i shared friendly relation with all of them after 6 month my ex decided to come into my life and he contacted my every friend to ensure that i share any relationship with them or not now he hacked my id my mobile numbers and he says that if i will not marry him he will ruin me and my family along with it he says that he loves me alot........ i love my parents alot i cant see them sad because of me iknow i had done alot of mistakes in my past but now i m completely changed... but my parents dont know about any thing .i dont know if they will know all that things how i would face them ........... i really dont wanna marry him .... because only i have seen his real face........ no one else knows should i marry him for the sake of respect of my parents and my family?sometimes i thinks that i should leave my family so that i will not need to face them when they will knew everything please help me out

hi,you made a mistake in the past and you should not suffer in the present,tell your parents the whole story,they will support u and lodge a complaint of harassment and blackmail

i know you guys are right but from where i belong no one will be ready to accept my past even my parent whom i love the most will also through me out when they will know the whole situation i will not be able to face them , even my mom who knows the situation little bit want me to marry that person so that my family would not face any problem in future i don\\\'t know what to do ..sometimes i think to escape sometimes i think to kill myself i don\\\'t have anyone who can help me out.... i really dint know what to do.........

hi,if your parents dont support lodge a complaint yourself with the help of an ngo,you need to fight this not run away or kill yourself

i think u guys don't know where i live , i live in Pakistan where no one support an innocent person, no one raise voice for someone i know i had done mistakes but that time i was just 18 , and only god knows i had changed myself and i am guilty and i will not repeat my mistake. but even after knowing all this no one will support me... i am living a life of psycho patient. recently i got admission in my MS program but i am afraid to go out and even my mom want me to marry him in 3 or 4 months i would not be able to continue my studies i wouldn't be able to fulfill my dreams than why i should b alive............. I am completely disappointed. and yes thanks for your reply

Dear Introuble - Leaving Pakistan is one answer to your problem...how can you do that? Are there any groups that would help you (like a Christian group or a Women\'s group)? You are right, you are being blackmailed. I will pray for you to find a solution because I feel this problem is bigger than we here can handle. Our lives are so different...we have options and understanding that we all need to start over sometimes and help all the time even if we sometimes don\'t realize it). God bless you and keep you from harm! whatsup

thanks dear for your reply but i dont know whom to contact where to go . well felt really nice after talking to you guys. May God help me.waiting for his miracles