Engaged to two men

I'm currently engaged to two guys, what's happening is iv been dating the other for 8 years now and we have a baby together and out of the blue i started loosing interest in him then he engaged me year back. Before he engaged me i was already seeing someone else, it was never meant to be anything solid but i fell deep for him. 6 months after the first engagement i broke up with the guy and continued with the other one and he engaged me as well but as time went on i went back to the first one, so i am still with both but they are not aware. I feel that i love both guys so much and care so much for them but i am not sure between the two who am i in love with. i am tired of dating both, lying and dishonesty but i have a reached a point were i have to choose but i am scared of hurting them and also scared that i might choose the wrong guy. This situation is emotionally straining me. Please help

You have got yourself into a complete mess! I would say may be get away from both if possible and think with a cool head as to whom you are missing more. But then again you also have a baby with you to keep in mind.

Wow you have crazy situation you must be so confused. I agree with the last post you need to get away from both, because you cannot decide at the moment which one to be with , otherwise you would have by now.

@SHIVANGI and MOUNTAIN, that's what i have been thinking too and ready to act now, @SUSIEDQ i am not here to be judged okay, i feel bad about my situation.. and i did confess to father of mi child about what i did and to my surprise he wont let go of me. So an advice would help yeah..

I see you have confessed to the dad of you kid and he will not let you go.... I think he has self esteem issues..... I think you do not love either men, you need to be free from both to see that.... You betrayed both of them at some point...... you are running from something..... You are not ready for the commitment of a relationship let alone marriage..... Why is all the control and power on these guys shoulders? He won't let me go ? you are already gone....many moons ago .... Both of these relationships are over.... you just have not realized it yet. You do not get to have a choice between two persons.... they both deserve better...... Move on and get away from both.